the awesome thing that this used to be

Hi.

I can't and I won't lie by saying that I have neglected this other part of me totally, especially after the last post (the passing of TS, Al-fatihah, may he rest in peace).

I believe that I can't set my priorities straight nowadays. I'm pretty much a procrastinator. Plus I get too many things to do nowadays, and that counts editing wedding photos as well, which I enjoy but not when I get too much of it.

On the other hand, life is still pretty good. Although parents keep nagging me to look for a more stable job. But I know they're not forcing me. They actually care. Thank you mak and ayah. But I want to try things my own way now. I won't fail you. I still have that piece of paper (the degree) intact so if anything happens, all those years I spent in Korea can be put to good use.

Anyway, I've been on a good term with the girl I really like (remember the 'stranger' from past entries? Yes, she is still the one). We've had quite a lot of conversations lately, some of which are pretty long and continued for hours (fyi, we talked on Google Talk, not on the phone). Those conversations kind of made me feel good, in a way. Although usually it was me who had to initiate the chat and think of things to say. But isn't that what men got to do at the first place?

in spite of that, I don't want to think that she also likes me in return. I believe she's a super friendly, extroverted type of girl, and talking for hours with anyone is probably not a big deal to her. Which is good, for her. Heck, I don't even know if she's dating someone at the moment, or if she still have a boyfriend. I don't know. Well honestly, I want to know, but I don't want to ask. I love the way things are right now. Smooth and steady.

But I hope she's not giving any hint when she let me pick her up at her house after I asked her to join me to watch a small gig last month. I totally suck at reading hints, by the way.

Heck. At this moment I don't even care if she's reading this. I just want her to know that she had made one man in the whole population of 6 billion people fall in love just by looking at her sweet smile. And her (quite) slit eyes. And her tanned skin. And her dark straight hair.

You made me smile. At least for all these while.

Comments

[Fingertrees]

typepad mcm cool je! dahla boleh log in pakai LJ. extra coolness untuk itu 크하하 senang sket nk komen. hehe

[Eman]

kau ni komen langsung takde kaitan dengan entry! haha